God’s Hope in Infertility
After two years of marriage, my husband and I decided to have children but 1 year later we were unsuccessful and eventually diagnosed with infertility. Another year passed with 3 failed fertility treatments. The following year brought more disappointment with a failed adoption. I felt great sadness thinking I would never reach my life goal and purpose of becoming a mom. On November 20th of that year, I wrote these words in my journal: “weary,” “sad,” “hopeless dreams,” “loss,” “agony,” and “alone.” It was one of my darkest days. But God heard my cries and was working on a plan.
The next year we again applied to adopt. We knew we could wait a few years. During this time, God used an infertility counselor to teach me I am not alone in my suffering, and if we never have children God still has a plan and purpose for my life. It is God who gives my soul lasting hope and fulfillment.
Finally, we received the news we were matched to adopt a 2-year-old boy. We would pick him up a few months later. His birthday is November 20th. On the exact day I had written in my journal and deeply grieved the loss of motherhood our future son had been born! God is our amazing hope!
We are so thankful our son’s birth mother decided to give birth instead of choosing abortion. God has a plan for every unborn child and their mother. Choosing life is a blessing to others.